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6th Aug, Fri

ashley — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 02:46:48 +0000

Im sucha a fool. I REALLY HAD ENOUGH!!

Okie i gt back together w him last fri from my last entry that i said we quarrel. I know it happened again. I didnt keep the promise i made to myself. He sms me last fri and chatted till i went over to his house last fri and of coz spent the wkend together.

Den yest we quarrelled becoz of money again. He keep insist he pay more during our last jb trip, so i reason w him till he nth to say but he say i still owe him a kneel. He wan me kneel down coz wed i sensitive him and accuse him so he was v angry. I refuse to. Before we quarrel over money, he told me he gonna look for becky to refuse the RO post after his RA accts den go break wif them. Den after we quarrel, he went off. I tot he went to see becky. But i dunno wad got into me that i actually went down to see if he’s smking wif serene. And to my dismay, i was really stun to see them sitting downstairs smking. Can u know how hurt i was? i feel so betrayed. He promise he wont smk w her after our last quarrel. Im pretty sure yest was not e first time he smk wif her after our last quarrel. I sms him, he say he did nth wrong, and he wont explain. WTF?? He dun apologise and is not guilty at all. In e end, he still choose her to acc him rather den me. Wad make me angry e most is he still gt e cheek to tell me to leave him alone. Im suppose to be e one who end e r/s, wad right does he hav to do so? He’s not apologetic at all, make me so du lan. All was an act, a plot from beginning. he told me he was going to meet becky in advance den arrg smk break w her. Den tell me he’s meeting becky so that i wont suspect anythin. How smart.

Yest out of my mind, i activate my zoosk acct to spy him. Know wad? he didn’t diactivate his acct and his status was “recently online”. How foolish i was to believe when he told me e reason he visited zoosk last time. Wad hurt me e most is really his lies and betrayal. I trust him again and again and he broke it again and again. He knew i was not happy wif him smking w serene yet he chose to make me angry still.

Tonight he’s going clubbing w his frenz to celebrate w his frenz and i dun even wanna think wad will happen> he can jolly well enjoy since he gt no work tml, and i have. Im not going to spend his bday wif him as planned anymore. I cried yest but i wont be sad anymore. I will make gd use of this long wkend to study and do my things. I fking swear no matter wad he sms me, i wont go back to him unless he fking be apologetic. Im not going to listen to anymore of his crap excuse why he smk w her. Last time the reason was crap enuff. Not sure did i post it anot. I saw him smking w serene, that time he didnt saw me. he was suppose to go up find hr but nv. I asked him did he smk wif her. He said no. I said i saw it my own eyes and he still lied. Den he try luff and bluff his way thru, say becky not ard so went smk w her. i was angry but i gave in. he say i force him till he said no. So i force him to lie? This was e last quarrel w argue over her. he say wont smk w her, even if he do, will tell me. I knew he wont be so gd, nv go smk wif her for so long, so im pretty sure yest was not e 1st time.

he’s leaving end aug, and i really cant wait to see him leave. I cant trust him so even we didnt quarrel, i will still leave him after when he leave GE. Other banks will have more girls and i know i jus cant trust him at all. I really wanna start my life afresh. he say im not even 80% of his expectation so he wont give me status. Lol who is he to judge me?? he’s not gd either. I jus wanna find another guy who really care and luv me. I jus wanna forget abt him, forget someone who done enuff damage to me. I jus feel like a loser whenever i gt back w him after a quarrel. I jus feel stupid and i dun wish to hav such a feeling anymore.

29th July, Thursday

ashley — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 07:16:33 +0000

I have change my course. I decided not to waste time and money pursueing acca anymore. I’m now studying business in SIM RMIT and i’m happy i have made this choice. In e beginning, i shldnt have started on ACCA. I studied that becoz i wanna earn more money not becoz im interested. As a result, i have no interest to study at all and thus fail my papers. I only pass 2 so far and i think it’s enough. I jus cant make it. Studying at SIM, i feel like going to lectures more even thou it is even further den going to kaplan. I used to hate projects alot but i now think it’s a gd way to help u pass exams. If u submit yr project, the chances of e lecturer failing u e assignment are v low. They will definitely help u to get better grades in assignments to pull up e overall scores. Every mth im paying $750 of installment, i seriously dun wish to fail anymore. Im sick and tired of working at whr i am. Yes ppl envy that my job is slack and pay is high. But it’s not fulfilling at all.

How i wish i can be a full time student. I wanna take a break from working. But i jus cant. I nid the money, i wan more working experience. Imagine how much money i could hav save if i work. and every mth i gt alot of commitment to pay. Now still hav to pay sch fees. Seriously im so used to getting this much of salary every mth alr. It’s gonna be hard if i change job. I will hav to change another lifestyle and certainly i wont be getting so much like now alr. It’s really sad that my family dun plan for me. I have to plan myself. How i wish i was born rich. I feel so tired.

29th July, Thursday

ashley — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 02:55:54 +0000

3 mths since i updated here… last entry was when he was still on his study break. We quarrelled and patch during that period of time and i try not to give him any troubles as wad he requested coz he need to concentrate on his exams if not he will ignore me. Den he came back to work in June. Of coz there sure to be quarrels jus that i cant rem any right now.

1st wk of July that wkend, we went kelong along w others. It was a short, relaxing trip. I jus had mahjong the whole time while i was there while some of e guys were fishing and of coz not forgetting to watch the exciting WC between argentina and germany there.

Den i had an early birthday celebration w my polymate. We went to eat marche, chill at macdonald and hk cafe till 1am and have alot of fun. My actual birthday i spent it my beloved sec sch frenz. We went Brozeit this germany restaurant at vivo for dinner. When the clock strike 12am on my bday, i was at his house. I went to find him after sch and he treated me crabs. No present, he wanted me to buy him 1st. I can understand why. he dowan to be lugi. he scare he buy me too ex de present for me den i dun buy or i buy cheap present for him. This kind of guy oso got. I jus dowan to argue with him at all. I treated him jay’s concert yet still not enuff. And so 24th july, we went indoor stadium for jay’s concert. We were quarrelling jus after my bday and we were suppose to go vivo eat together w other colleagues for my bday. He was not willing to talk to me at all so we jus treat other as transparent. I forgot wad was it about but we were ok on the concert day and e deal was i hav to treat him $100 meal. Eventually i didnt treat him $100 meal but i pay for his dinner and other small things. We bot jay’s souvenirs at e concert. I dun hav enuff cash on me so i only paid for e cap $18. He paid e rest so i still owe him $13 and at 1st he expect me to return to him. I nag say i paid so much for his ticket and yet $13 he oso wanna gei gao w me. After e concert, we went to chill w iris and ronald and den to geylang for dimsum. I paid for his beer and dimsum too while he said he will pay for e cabfare home.

Sunday evening i went home to bathe and change while waiting for him to be back from apple’s chalet to meet him again. Monday morn, i wanted to buy bread and didnt wanna be late for work. Den he was naggingat me while buying bread. Say i choose e bread so slow den ask me faster keep e money first coz i blur. I gt so pek ceh i scold him ask him stop nagging at me. He gt angry and refuse to give me e bread i bot. I even paid for his bread one. I bot 2 for myself. Wanted to eat for bf and for sch. Till end of e day, he still refuse to give me my bread sy he will throw away. Im really angry over e bread. I paid so much yet i dun get to eat at all. So we quarreled till now. Of coz it become my fault. Say im giving him trouble at e critical time of his life ( i will explain later). He’s jus so unreasonable.

Anyway the critical time of his life is becoz he’s has tender his resignation letter and leaving end aug but he still couldnt get a job yet. GE sales rejected him and choose to hire eric instead. Having a big ego, he was devastated of coz and keep scold Ge for wasting his time. He was very confident that he will get the job. Sumhow thou i dun wish him to leave, i wish to see him fail too for being over confident and being so arrogant.

I told him once he leave ge, it will be e end of us coz i cant trust him at all and i will feel even more insecure. Den he scold say instead of supporting him at this critical time, all i care is abt my insecurity, say im selfish. But isnt he selfish too for not putting himself in my shoes? Anyway i wanted to wait till after he leave Ge den end, but since he say he wanna be alone now, and having to face him for another mth in office, i guess i will have to bear with it and learn to let go for i know we wont last, and it’s jus a matter of time.

13th April, 2010

ashley — Tue, 13 Apr 2010 02:33:17 +0000

It’s been more den a mth since i last wrote an entry here. Everythin was great between me and him till yest night. We do hav arguements but nothin serious all these while. He v fast ok le but not this time. I actually dun think is my fault. Maybe i agree i was over-sensitive.

Thou he dowan add me as fren in his fb, i could still see his fren list and photos that he upload. I dunno why i now den notice he gt this album where he celebrated his bday wif his ex and frenz in aug 2008. I still see him hugging his ex and being so close yet he told me he broke up offically in june. Wad im angry is firstly he lied, secondly he flirt wif me when he still wif ex. He explained say is on/off r/s. His ex wanna patch back he dowan. Den say at that point of time we were not together so i gt no right to interfere. I believe is coz he know me le so he dowan to patch back wif ex. He say he dowan anythin to do wif ex so delete her from fb last time. Den i go see his fren list, she’s in his list now and he said she add him, so he accept. In e first place, if he alr del his ex, he shldnt accept alr. He said his ex better den me. If that is so, i told him he can go back find her or get someone else since his parents dun like me too. And i had enuff we been quarrelling over this status thin. He said im not good enough to get a status from him, which i think is crap.

He asked me pass his ipod back to his nephew today and dun contact each other again. Since now that he’s not in office, it’s easier to leave and forget now too. Coz when he leave Ge, we wont be together oso, for sure…

For the past 1 mth im really happy hanging out wif him. We went casino cruise, fishing, went clubbing wif him jus e 2 of us, and even went east coast wif him. I really feel love. Now that he’s not at work, he went to apply this bb service so that we can msn even when he not at home to save sms. He may be unreasonable and bad tempered at times, but he’s still v sweet and caring. I test his limit twice yesterday. Before this huge quarrel, yest at work i hint him for status and he gt angry. But he forgive me thou he was quite annoy by me. At night talk on e phone i bring this up to quarrel and end up i suffered.

5th March, Friday

ashley — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 03:15:14 +0000

Every wk we sure have to quarrel. We patch and quarrel. It’s a repeated cycle. Another quarrel yesterday. Tues i mentioned we quarrel but it was fine on that day itself alr. Wed, I met wif up ex-ocbc colleagues den went home bathe, wait for him come fetch me to his house. At his house we quarrelled, coz i told ron he teaching leo how to win us. I find is nth wrong telling ron that. He insist that he told me not to tell anyone wad he told me. I think he purposely wanna quarrel. So fucking angry that night. Wanted to go home alr. In e end i had to beg him to let me slp for e night. But in e morning we were fine alr. Den noon i went pay bills saw him smking wif her and he treated me as transparent and jus walk past me. He say i purposely chk on him. Ya a part of it, i was. I tot he went smk wif andy but i saw andy at his desk but he was not here.

2nd March, Tuesday

ashley — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 07:06:47 +0000

So fucking angry and pek ceh since yesterday. Last fri i went newton to eat wif ken, ron and iris before our movie. Den i was so angry when i ken told me sumthin and make me no appetite to eat, make me cant think straight. That day Ken was v angry wif serene so i asked him why. He said serene promise to go teabreak with him but later on she said she not free. Den when he went down to smk wif ron, he saw her smking wif ltt. He was angry that she was free to smk wif ltt but not free to go teabreak wif him. I hear liao oso sian. Really is wtf?? I sms him this, den of coz i gt scolding from him asking me to leave him alone. Double blow already. I cannot take it anymore. I sms him alot on fri night, saying i wont bother him anymore. I didnt sms him on sat night but at 5am he sms me, asking me continue to be slut. I on silent so only saw it in e morn but i didnt reply him either. So at 10am+, he sms me, telling me dun be slut. I ignored. Den at 2pm+, he sms say he actually miss me but have to let go, tell me dun be slut again. This time i reply him to scold him, asking him he’s a liar and bastard himself so he gt no right to say me le. He insist he nv lie. And jus keep argue thru sms for 2 hrs till i dun wish to reply him le. Den 1hr later he sms me again asking me to go his house. I was slping only saw his msg 2 hrs ltr. I scold him, den argue again. He know that im serious so he try to calm me down asking me not to say things to make myself angry only. Anyway in e end i stayover at his house and went work together wif him e next day. Den he made some excuse to buy bf for me after we alight from mrt and walk off v fast. I tot i think too much that he was avoiding me. Yest we didnt st at work, jus exchange afew emails. Last time after work, he will ask him wait for him to go home together. But now not. I was angry i sms him before i left ofx that he changed le now dowan go home wif him anymore. Den he reply saying he’s jus behind me, asking me to wait at mrt go home together den. I was so angry till i walk v fast refusing to go home together wif him. I even went down from e other side of e cabin, told him i on train le, home den talk ba. I was really damn bu shuang. I told him he changed alr after he get closer to serene, after d&d, he dun ask me to go home together, nv ask me acc him to smk or break anymore and keep avoiding me in ofx. He said after d&d everyone talking abt us so he dowan ppl gossip us, saying he not superstar. He rather ppl gossip him and serene rather den wif me. He only care abt his face and not my feelings. No wonder that time when he saw felicia in front, he walked so fast away from me, leaving me behind. He say im not loving to him anymore and i hav changed. He’s e one who is not loving to me anymore. He’s e one who change. He last time will ask me wait for him and go dinner together, we will walk to work together, take train home together but not now anymore. Jus becoz he scare ppl mistaken us. I shoot him say he last time wont bother wad ppl say abt us, now coz of serene coz of eac, he mind. I asked him serene likes him izzit? or he giving serene chance to chase him? He st and smk wif her everyday. I wonder why. Is there a need? And i wonder wad they always talk abt. He refuse to tell me. I was so angry. He ask me dun be sensitive etc… how can i not be angry, sad and hurt?? He’s selfish. he dun be not to talk abt all these le if not he will ignore me. This morn i sms him to treat me transparent in office, and dun talk at all in office le since we oso dun talk much in ofx now and he oso like avoiding me in ofx. I told him to cherish e time smking and chatting wif her ba since is his last mth. He gt angry, ask me to leave him alone and said he warned me yesterday night alr. Well.. i really is give up on him, disappointed wif him. I tell u i really can move in if he’s not in ofx anymore. So i jus need to endure this mth. He really can smk or st anyone he likes le.

26th Feb, Friday

ashley — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 02:45:21 +0000

Okie lets hav a recap of wad happened between me and him. Last Fri night i was home feeling sad abt him but i didnt msg him. I went shopping awhile den home to watch movies trying hard not to think abt him. Den midnight, he sms me while he was at club, asking me not to email him at work or to contact him. Say he alr recover after taking urgent half day on thurs. I 4gt wad i reply and he didnt reply. Having fun partying whr will bother abt me… Den ard 5am+ in e morn, i received his sms. I was woke up by his sms so i replied him. We chat thru sms till 7am. We argued all e way thruout e sms, he continue to accuse and say things to hurt me. Den in e noon while i was preparing to go bel’s house, he sms to curse me lose money.. -_-”

At bel’s house on sat, i didnt not wannaa get close to him at all but pretend nth happen between us. He was trying to get near to me during dinner time and while playing bj, he chose to sit beside me. His mum made e special chicken which he knew i like it and especially get it and put on my plate. It was sweet of him. Den he knew i was going out later in e night ( i was suppose to meet mitchelle at east cost, and he’s suppose to go df wif andy), he act ke lian sy he’s sick not going to club. We played till 12am and i had no intention of going east coast alr. Iris drove us to my house dere whr he’s suppose to draw money to return to ron and took a cab home from there. Den we stood at e bus stop waiting for him to smoke finish and he asked me to go his house. I was quite reluctant at 1st but ya… i went off with him. Den noon i went home while he went to his fren’s house for mj. Everythin was fine supposedly…

Den i went to extract teeth on wed so was on mc from work. I post a comment on fb abt my teeth and mark commented. He randomly sms me asking me who’s mark, trying to accuse me and dun believe me. On tues night i was so piss off coz he lied but i didnt pursue it. I say him rather comment on other ppl’s status den to reply my sms. He say nv fb say no time but i saw it. I saw e time of his comment on his fren’s status. He think im stupid??? So i brought it up on wed to quarrel with him since he wan accuse me. Den u noe wad excuse he give? He say he wanna let him hav e feel of being lied to. That’s becoz he gt caught he gt nth to say alr den he say such thin. Anyway i was so fed up till i say i wanna end it. Den wed night he called me to chat and all was fine again. Yest, after lunch break, i hear him typing alot so i asked him talking to who, he tell me nobody, he was jus calling. I gt no evidence so i didnt pursue either. Den at abt 5pm, he gt prob wif his i-banking, so he asked me go to his desk to help him. Den he began to like chase me away, asking me to go back, before i walked off, i saw serene’s st! He told me he nv smoke wif serene, nv chat wif her yet this is wad i saw. Den u noe wad’s excuse he give? ‘i wanna give u a feel of how i feel in e past’ His lie gt expose alr and he wanna blame it on me!! Saying he’s jus learning from me and i said that lying was not wrong. I had enough.. I nv even do anythin wrong now for him to get back at me. And i think is becoz his lie gt found out by me that he lidat say, say until it was to let me noe how he feels when i lied. I say he’s simply childish den if he’s trying to get back at me. I was so disappointed and heartache when i saw serene’s st. I told him to end it, and he say some crap to me again and agreed saying he dun nid a gal like me to pull him down, saying his studies and career more impt now. I didnt wanna reply to any of his msg le. Den this morn, he purposely say out loud to leo for me to hear that he’s going for movie. Ya i do still feel abit sour, thinking of him watching movie wif another gal. But thats not my biz anymore right? since i alr decided to give up on me. I was really disappointed wif him… He himself chatting wif others yest yet accuse me of being busy chatting wif others…

Since monday night i told him abt my results of failing 2 modules, he been scolding me, nagging at me. I know he mean well.. but cant he be more understanding to console me 1st?? Thats y i was quite reluctant to tell him abt my results at first but i cant hide forever. Everyday at work, on e phone at home, he will be nagging abt my studies… I was so frustrated.

Yest when i go view his fb, i totally cant see his fb info anymore. Thou im not in his fren list, i used to still can view his status and who he added. Think after i expose him abt his fb, he knew i can see all those things and he change his settings. Nvm i dowan see his fb make myself upset even further. I deleted all his msg and everythin that link to him alr…

19th Feb, Friday

ashley — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 07:12:38 +0000

I really feel v sad now. I dunno why i jus cant stop thinking of him. He didnt msg me at all last night. So at abt 11pm i sms him saying hopefully we could be frenz etc. He told me to stop sms him anymore. he took urgent half day to recover and today he will be fine alr. True enough, he was ok today at work alr. He purposely say that he’s going out tonight blah blah… i noe he purposely say it out loud to let me know. He gt alot of gals so he could easily jus get anyone to go out wif him. So that’s his way of forgetting me?? I emailed him saying he could go back to his orginal char of flirting etc alr and he ignored me. I was e one who block him in st 1st now his turn to block me back so i could only email him.

Den lunchtime ken mention my deadspot again. Asking me a general question on virginity. Im really v sensitive on this topic and wish ppl can dun mention this word in my face. He said at my age confirm no virgins alr and i confirm not. I jus replied most of my frenz still are… I cant even say im anymore. I gave it to a jerk and iam still feeling v regretful and upset. Yest he sms say love is not jus by words. I did show him my love thru actions but he cant see or feel it or jus not satisfied. I gave him wad he wanted. I listened to him. I agreed to wadever he said. I was e one who suppose to leave 1st. Now he jus dun bother abt me anymore. Who am i exactly to him? He yest said he was upset but today he can so fast forget abt his upset and become happy again. How fake can he be? I dunno why it jus irks me to see him in ofx or hear his voice now. Arghh… if he dun leave in march but april den i gt 1 more mth to endure. How am i to escape for 1 whole mth?? Really feel like going MIA in march if he’s still not leaving. A day wif him in ofx is totally killing me. Wish he could jus keep his mouth shut so that i wont hear his voice and disappear from my sight. In e first place i didnt do anythin wrong. He was e one who accuse me that night and create quarrel. He said he did his part yest morn by asking me to go down but i did not so he gave up. I really did wanna move on. I swear i really did wanna find other nicer guys but i love him too much to let go. And i dunno why i jus gt no luck in love. It’s so hard to know guys, if not is it’s jus hard to find someone i like. In my fb, everyone is getting into r/s. I envy them. When im attached i wanna be single. Now that im single, i yearn for love, for someone whom i can lead on and rely on. My results will be out on monday and i guess i will probably fail all 3 modules. Really gt no interest at all. Feel like dying. A total waste of time and money. Tml gonna go bel’s house, dun feel like going at all also. Jus dun feel like joining any company’s activities now.

18th Feb, Thursday

ashley — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 09:53:05 +0000

Yesterday, at 9pm he sms asking me i club wif jus irene before and say he heard from ‘someone’ that i was slping ard. I noe he purposely accuse me so i didnt really bother to explain. It’s not e 1st time he accuse me of being a slut anyway. I can see his reply was v frustrated with me when i gave him my ‘cant be bothered’ attitude. He said he would tear away e photo i gave him and return me e frame. He was damn angry and jus keep sms me to scold me, saying alot of nasty things and saying things to make himself looks noble. He say alot of terrible things to me, I still can tolerate till a point, it jus hit my dead spot when he talk abt virginity. I was so upset till i cried but i noe my tears were not for him, is for myself. I cried for being stupid coz everythin i did in e end was not worth it at all. In e end i jus msg him i will move on and wont reply any of his sms anymore and i fell aslp from crying. He sms me afew crap sms but i only saw it in e morn. I didnt reply at all after that. At work, he st me abt sat cny gathering, i ignored him. He asked me del photos on me and him, i ignored him. Den he return me the torn photos of me and him and the photo frame. At that moment, my heart was dead completely. I didnt expect him to really tear it away and i told myself if he really did that, i must really move on. He torn our relationship away. I cant stand his unreasonable and demanding char anymore. I did not say anythin abt e torn photos and frame and he was even more frustrated so he request to go down to talk for 10mins. I refuse. He sms me afew times to go down. After 10mins, i decided to go down coz i dowan him to waste his not ready time. I reply him to wait for me. He reply dun nid alr. But i still went down. He saw me alr he said i can dun come down coz dun nid alr. He expect me to pacify him but i did not. I said okie and went off to buy bf. When i finish buying bf, he alr went back to work. I block him in st so he sms me saying he;s not important, i went down not coz of him is to buy bf. Bf was really shun bian but i cant be bothered to argue at all. He said he was upset. If he knew he will be upset, he will not do such thin and get angry with me everythin for nothin. He keep say i nv change and that’s becoz he keep accuse me. I really nid to move on to be happy. Continue like this, we are jus wasting each other’s time. After lunch, he didnt come back to work. Later on, heard ken say he went urgent half day. Leo was around when ken asked why he went urgent half day but leo say dunno. Probably he took urgent half day go dating coz before lunch, he has alot of incoming sms. Whatever it is i dun care, i hope i can really dun bother abt him now… I can feel he really give up too… i dunno shld i be happy anot..

12th Feb, 2010

ashley — Fri, 12 Feb 2010 03:04:11 +0000

It’s been abt 2 wks since i wrote anythin here. Last wk i remember celebrating Nat’s bday at some super ex korean restaurant but e food was great. Really is KOREAN food! After that i went home, took a shower and get ready to go his house. He drove to the airport to send off his fren, after that came to fetch me. He was so much later den e agreed time coz he sent his fren home and den he was lost around that area. By e time he reached my house here, his car almost no petrol alr so he was v worried and frustrated. Luckily the petrol last us till we found a petrol station.

Last fri think i quarrel wif him coz he went out wif his frenz and he didnt wanna tell me with me and whr. Say im nobody to know. But he was still nice to sms me on sat morn asking me to wake up. I was alr awake and getting ready to go sch. That day i almost fainted in e train. I was on fever and almost black out. I quickly alight at tpy to sit down 1st. Den board e next train, going to black out again but i didnt wanna alight alr so i squat down till i reach somerset. Met wendy to pass her clothes before i went sch. After sch rush home to bathe and went cwp to meet him for shopping, dinner and movie. Watch armored. Wasnt that great. Sat night quarrel wif him again at his house coz i saw serene’s pass in his bag. His bag was open so i happened to saw it and he was wif me so he wont say i rummage his bag without his permission. Coz i ‘accidentally’ saw it when his bag was open. He scold me but nv tell me why her pass wif him but he was v angry alr so i nv ask. After that we pretend everythin was fine. He tried out his clothes for me to see. But while slping, i jus cant help it coz he didnt give me an ans. He gt angry that i asked e 2nd time, he pulled me and slap me and ask me to get out of his house. I seriously wanted to leave his house. Coz i feel if he gt nth to hide, why cant he jus explain to me? But when i really wanna leave, he dun allow me to go, saying nasty things. Den he like ‘fu yan’ wo telling me took wrong pass wif her. I didnt probe further but i was thinking if really took wrong pass, why cant quickly jus exchange back, summore they keep gt eac meeting and smk break together( thou i dunno he still gt smk wif her now anot), gt chance to meet up to change back wad. After so long alr, it was still in his bag! I have been wanting to ask abt it since 2 wks ago but i did not. 2 wks ltr, is still wif him! Is jus so suspicious. But nvm later i cried, he den soft hearted came to console me. I decided to let it go. Sunday went home, and he went for more shopping wif his fren.

Sunday night i itchy again go talk abt e pass, asking him to change back e pass on that day, den he gt super angry that i mention it again. Scold me nv learn blah blah blah… and dowan speak to me again. But monday at work, he st me and start talking to me. Wed he went wif ken to a farewell dinner for one of e eac ppl. While i went Harry’s to celebrate lk’s bday. Totally no appetite. Cant taste anythin at all. Was down wif cough and flu since monday. Wed see doctor up till now haven recover.

Yest went shopping wif him at bugis. I asked him did he change back e pass alr coz wed he promise he would. He like fu yan wo say “ya”. But i jus keep quiet. Den i reached home so bu shuang so i asked him did he really exchange back e pass alr. He gt real angry le. Dowan reply my sms, went msn went him, gt scolded by him. Call him dowan ans me…. Up till now still on cold war. Say dowan continue wif me anymore. We were suppose to go shopping today again and spend wkend together …