18th Jan, Mon

Last thurs i decided to take MC from work. Didnt feel like coming to work at all esp after he sms me on wed night wanting to make me more sad. Den thurs noon he sms me 2 times, asking me not to do silly things. I did not reply to him at all. Den thurs night he sms me telling he going KL soon, which i alr that he will be away from fri-sun. I jus reply him to take care and miss him. I know i should hav skip the part telling him i miss him but i really do miss him.

That day i went sch but i miss half of e lesson coz i nid to take MC. If i wait till i finish lesson, the clinic close alr. Actually went at 5pm but doctor will only be here at 6pm and there were 20 patients in front of me but my lesson start at 6.45pm so i decided to go sch first den see how. Left after 1hr 30mins of lesson. Feel so guilty to miss the other half but no choice. The doctor wanted to give me MC for fri oso but think i will be losing alot of money so i decided not to take any.

Fri was a boring but peaceful day at work. I feel myself emotionally more peaceful without him around at work. I went facial after work and rot my wkend at home. Suppose to meet elsie and mitchelle yest but it was cancelled. think is coz mitch cant make it. Well… at least i get to save money over the wkends and enjoy myself chasing shows at home.

Yest night he sms me after he’s back from KL, say he jus wan make sure i nv do silly thin and i’m alright. Argue again in e sms. He keep insisting is all my fault, i nv learn blah blah blah. Say i make him feel stupid to even sms me. WADEVER!!! Jus becoz im not his gf, so he can say leave jus leave, and do wadever he wan but i cant. he cant control me, i cant. he said coz he dun nid a gf. he dun nid a gf so he can control me and i cant? really dun understand.